Canada can't get rid of me now!To my long lost mates of Roosterteeth. I have lurked for far too long.

For those who have recently joined and watched me I give you the Previously On.

Once upon a time a little country Tuckapenguin got involved with an awesome web series called Red vs Blue. She started her own fanfiction community and immersed herself in the fandom and admired it from a distance.

Until one day in 2010 her best friend got stranded in Alberta. 'What the hell, why not? Why not go to your first convention, a Red vs Blue convention at that!' To be honest her first few weeks weren't brilliant. Her travel agent stranded her, she got lost and missed the last day of RvBTO and where she was staying was pre...

Canada can't get rid of me now!To my long lost mates of Roosterteeth. I have lurked for far too long.

For those who have recently joined and watched me I give you the Previously On.

Once upon a time a little country Tuckapenguin got involved with an awesome web series called Red vs Blue. She started her own fanfiction community and immersed herself in the fandom and admired it from a distance.

Until one day in 2010 her best friend got stranded in Alberta. 'What the hell, why not? Why not go to your first convention, a Red vs Blue convention at that!' To be honest her first few weeks weren't brilliant. Her travel agent stranded her, she got lost and missed the last day of RvBTO and where she was staying was pretty uncomfortable... But she met someone, from the RvB community no less, and saying goodbye was just too hard.

So they didn't. For two years they straddled two countries, Canada and Australia, she worked and studied and volunteered until July 2012 she finally found her way back, hopefully permanently.

But plain tickets and visa were the easy part. The hard part was starting your whole life again with a blank slate.

Moving countries was so much harder than I expected in a million and one small ways. Things like your licks are upsidedown, your taps turn the wrong way, your traffic rules are horrible. Things like a drivers license or a car. Things like bank accounts and insurance and credit history. Things like employment history. That was the big one. Im a person who needs to work, I need purpose in my life or otherwise I feel like a meaningless lump useless to society. Its always that horrible conundrum of you can't get work without a job, and no one would hire me without Canadian experience. I was terribly lonely and lost. My Joe is wonderful but he can't be my everything.

I didn't get my break until November when I was hired by Toys R Us night crew to stock for the holidays. I'm twenty six and haven't worked a service job since I was 17. Pigs are much easier than people, I'll tell you that. But it was a great crew and I made my first friends in Canada! Things were great until night crew ended. I was lucky, Toys R Us kept me on as day staff. Part time, underpaid and drooping around the house. I submitted resumes for everything to find a supplementary job but no one bit. Clothing stores, data entry, fast food... Yeah. You sure do feel like a loser when the world says you're too dumb to ask, 'Would you like fries with that?'

It's hard to admit you're depressed when everyone around you is doing everything they can to see you happy. I began sleeping all the time, blaming strange hours and health issues when really I didn't want to be awake. I lost inspiration to do anything creative and was too ashamed to talk, avoiding family and friends, many of you sent me messages, but I couldn't bring myself to answer and for that I'm sorry. It wasn't you, it was me.

But I'm back, brighter than ever. Why. The job opportunity of a life time. More than seven months of halfarsery I've made it. A week ago I got a phone all from the local vet hospital to interview for a position, and two days ago I accepted as a vet assistant, to be promoted to Veterinary Technician if I meet the challenge!

Tucka the Vet Tech!

This is incredible! Impossible! But it happened! In Australia every man and his dog try to get into vet, and it takes four years of study, and here I am, an ocean away and I fell into the career of my dreams! I've already participated in a neutering the vets own dog, abscess leaching a feisty Persian and ugot pissed on by the worlds craziest cat during an ultrasound... How lucky am I!

What this means is I'm back! I know I say this every time but I'm determined to get back and give back to the fandom I love! I don't know how busy I'll be because I want to study my butt off, but I want to do an update every Monday, the best of RvB web, fics, reviewers, artists, RPGs... Anything that strikes me!

Keep an eye out because I'll also be doing competitions and art and tutorials.

So thank you for everyone who stuck around while I was a silent jerk! Can't get rid of me now Canada!