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25 year-old male from Blue Spring, KY
I am really 17 years old male and I am from Cadiz, KY my friend that made my profile screwed everything up, sorry! and I am funny and daring, I will practicaly do anything that people dare me to, but no killing or somting like that. I like to skateboard, surf, and go snowboarding. I love playing at concerts with me and my friends band, we are called "The X's and O's" we are like a Emo/Screamo/Indie/electronical/exprimental/ rock band, and I also like playing with fire, it is so freakin awesome. exspecialy when things explodes. I am taken so FUCK OFF
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This is why life fucking hates me!Do you want to know why life hates me, why I hate myself, why I am a disappointment, and why I am such a piece of shit? My dad had a divorce with my mom a little after I was born; she still stayed in contact so she can still see my sister and me. After a while my dad me a woman named Dana and of course they got married, and for some reason we all the sudden lost contact with my mom. To top it all off, Dana would make me and my sister clean the hole house while she sat on the couch watching TV and if we didn't do things how she wanted or if it wasn't good enough, she would beat us and I was only 3 and my sister was 4. My grandma finally noticed how she was raising us but she still didn't know that she was beating us, but she still took use to live with her and my grandpa. I ended up meeting my Uncle Charlie and I thought he was really cool so I went to live with him and we would travel everywhere because he is an author, he wrote books about the best places to travel, the best spots to party, surf, snowboard, and skateboard, everything. He was so gnarly, he taught me everything, skateboarding, snowboarding, and surfing, he even taught me how to play all the interments I know and making and writing music and lyrics. I've seen some amazing place's and we even lived in Napoli Italy and not only that I started to hear from my mom. My uncle fount out that my grandma was diagnosed with cancer so he took me back to America and dropped me off to stay with her and he just took off. After a month in the hospital she died, we called my uncle to tell him and when the funeral was and he said that he would be down here. My grandma’s funeral cam up and I couldn’t even cry at her funeral, so I thought I lost all of my feelings and that I became a monster a heartless monster, and not only that my uncle was no where to be found, we called and called and his girlfriend didn't even know where he was, months, then years has passed and he was still know where to be found. We ended up going back to living with Dana and then the beatings started again and my sister got pregnant so the got worse, I took the blame for everything so she would stop hurting my sister and hurt me instead and so she wouldn't hurt my sisters baby. My mom still stayed in contact with us, she sent us cards with money but we never got it. It turned out that Dana was taking the cards take the money our of it and throw away the card, and my mom fount out about that so she stop sending money and just the cards, and Dana got pissed so she called my mom and told her that if she ever called or tried to come down here and see us, she would call the cops and she would go to jail and my mom couldn't afford that because she was in college. But Dana told my sister and me that she didn't care about us and that she wanted nothing to do with us. And of course again, the beatings kept on going on and on. And then my dad finally had a divorce with her. And after a couple a months I lost a friend and 4 more after that because of suicide, so I started to try to kill my self. I would drink pop some pills and cut where I bleed the most and lay down to go to sleep and hope that I would die in my sleep. I even chugged a lot of bleach and my dad came in and asked if I was ok and my face turned yellow and I tried to hide it but he knew something was wrong so he rushed me to the hospital and I had to get all the poison pumped out of me. I tried to kill my self like 9 times and the last one my friend walked in on me while I was about to pull the trigger on my dads gun. And he had suicidal problems too and he never thought about what it would be like to lose a friend he said. So we both made an oath that we would stop cutting and attempting suicide. So I stopped everything, even the drugs. Then I met my mom for the first time and then I fount out everything about Dana and what she did to keep us apart. My mom was so great though, she is my hero, she is always positive and she always makes me smile. I went back home though and after a month or 2 my uncle called and I thought he was dead to be honest and I was so angry and I started to scream and yell at him telling him to go to hell, but he asked me if he could still talk to me to catch up so I said fine, whatever. About 2 and ½ months has passed and he seemed said but I was to stupid to realize it and he asked me if I forgave him and if I loved him still, and I said NO. So the next day I got a call from his wife and his daughter that I didn’t know about and they told me he killed himself last night, HE FUCKING KILLED HIMSELF and he named his daughter after me, he named he Wilma and I ruined everything. Maybe he was upset about something else but if I would of told him that I forgave him and that I love him, he would still be alive right now but no, I took him away from his family. I deserve to die, I am a monster, that is why god fucking hates me and so does life that is why I am a worthless piece of shit. And a month ago from now, April 4/24/08. My friend that I made and oath with, well he committed suicide and I was friends with his family and they thought of me part of their family but now they hate me they blame his death on me and I honestly think it is my fault now, I don’t know how but it is. I am back to being numb now, I am afraid to love. I am afraid to make friends and everything because I know I am just going to get hurt again. I am the kid that sites in a dark corner and doesn’t talk to anybody and just ignore everybody around me and just I just want to disappear to make it easier on everybody else now. So now you know everything why I am a piece of shit. I never liked people giving me pity because I am not worth it, I do not deserve it, and I never want to be a burden again.
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| Awards | | | | The Goods | | | Name |
William Graff | | Occupation |
Student | | Birthday |
March 16th, 1988 | | Interests |
I like playing music skateboarding surfing snowboarding plaing with fire drawing me and the band writing songs for the band. | | Gamertag |
| | SKIPPY_GRAFF'S... | | | Music |
I like Underoath My Chemical Romance The Used Death Cab Cutie Taking Back Sunday Atrayu A7X Jet Coheed and Cambria As I lay Diying The Almost Lostprophets Red Jumpsuit Aperatus Kill Hana Aiden Bullet For My Valintine Wolf Mother The Black Meriah Hatebreed Modest Mouse The Cold War Kids Crossfade Fall Out Boy The Gorillaz The Gym Class Heros Escape The Fate The Matches Match Book Romance Vanna I Am Gost Rise Against The Butthole Surfers The Sex Pistols The Romoans Sage Francis All Time Low So They Say Saves The Day Armor For Sleep Moneen Chiodos American Eyes Protest The Hero Anti Flag Relient K Motion City Soundtrack The Academy Is... HelloGoodBye Paramore Fly Leaf Every Time I die Royden Sunstreak and a lot more it is just too much to type in! ^_^ | | Movies |
Horrer movies comedy movies action movies Porn Movies J/K or am I. ; ) | | TV Shows |
Scarred The Wightest Kids You Know Viva LA Bam Jackass The Dudesons The X Games Inuyasha Full Meatle Alcumest Blood Vampire D Family Guy That 70's Show and lots and lots more i can't remeber all of them right now. | | Books |
Im not a big reader but if I had to choose Muder Books and Horrer Books and of CCS Magazine Trans World Magazine and Stuff. |
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