OMG it's snowing!!!Fina-fucking-ly, we're getting some snow. This is all I really wanted was some good powder to make the boarding nice, I can't wait to get up to the mountain! Okay, so I'm just excited, that's all for now.
A theological debate on ChristmasI realized yesterday that I don't always give my older brother enough credit. At the dinner table yesterday, after having eaten, we had a debate on the merits of religion, having a God, and utopia. I, of course, dislike religion, don't believe in God, and don't believe an utopia is possible, though it's a very admirable goal. My bro dislikes organized religion, believes in God, and wants to work to create an utopia in the world and fervently believes it's possible. He asked me about predestination (though he didn't use that word), divine purpose, utopia, etc. and we had a very good conversation (though not much came of it, we disagree vehemently on the issues). He definitely made me think about some things, why I believe what I believe and how I can not care what created the world.
So Christmas was good and it was enlightening. The food was good, the people were great, the house was warm. I don't comment on the presents, because in the end who cares about them when you've so much better around you?
Life conclusions/realizations of the day
Fear the day when men will stop dying and suffering for a concept, for that is what makes us human
Ignorance is bliss, but I'd rather suffer a lifetime of sorrow than be without the knowledge I posess
What to do for 3 weeks...It's been a while since I've actually had to decide what to do with free time...I can barely remember the concept, but it's slowly coming back. So what do I do with my time? I snowboard, watch movies...and then end up doing exactly what I would do if I were in school, I end up doing research. But at least this is research that I want and took my own initiative to do, instead of it being assigned, and that's much more fulfilling...and oh yeah, I don't have to write a paper on this research :)
Some conclusions I've come upon...
Politics was not meant to be a vast bastion of sides hating sides as it's come to be, Democrats should not hate Republicans because their views differ and the same on the other side. Both sides love their country just as much as the other, but have different ways they wish it to go (so I already knew this, it's just become much clearer to me)
Flying down a hill on a piece of wood and fiberglass on hard snow ends up hurting...but not enjoying life and its experiences sounds so much more painful
We're not all searching for the meaning of life, we're searching for a way to participate in the experience of life
That's all for now, but I'm sure with hours and hours to sit and contemplate everything from life to what might be in my burrito I'll be coming up with much more soon.
Holy crap this semester is overI had my one, and only, final yesterday and I aced it (hopefully). I'm basically done now, except one really easy paper due Friday that I'm going to get done soon. THank fucking gods, this semester sucked hardcore, let's just hope the grades are okay. If I had a god I would pray to it, but since I don't I'll just try to use the force to get my professors to make those grades into A's, I'm sure it'll work...
I have new brothers, yay!We initiated 4 new brothers into Delta Tau Delta on Saturday, and damn it feels good. I never get tired of doing the ritual, and sometimes wish we could do it more often (and then I remember how much work it is to do it twice a year and totally forget that idea). I so wish I hadn't have had to work tonight so I could have partied with the new brothers and all the tons of people that apparently came to the house Saturday night, but alas John needs money.
On that note, what I don't have done is my Modern China paper, which was due Thursday and is quickly losing points. Must get it done tonight, ASAP. Then must get alternator in truck fixed so I can go to Boise and go shopping, and then at some point get another paper due this week done. How...exciting...
So much to do, so little time to do itPaper due tomorrow with research still not done, Rite of Iris on Friday also not practiced, initiation on Saturday luckily on track so far, D-Week shit all week long going well but taking time, paper due next week, make-up morgue due next Friday, make-up that needs to be bought for next week, boy that I need to text in Seattle but can't think of what to text...I'm about to fuckin' explode on someone or something and just go goddamn apeshit. I swear to gods it's time for a mental breakdown sometime soon, if only for an excuse to get extensions on all my shit. Well, I ugess I just have to persevere and keep that goal of Oxford Graduate School and the Rhodes Scholarship in mind (not that that doesn't add another level of stress to the whole situation, but whatever). Hooray for lots and lots of coffee and absolutely no sleep the next couple days.